Sigur Ros and Thought Processing:

So right now, I am listening to Sigur Ros' Med Sud I Eyrum, my favorite of the bands artistic genius. I am processing through my thought bank and due to the fact that I am in a public library, holding my emotions in. Life just got really freaking different. In the past two days, God has said enough! I got cut off at the knees and that my friends is a tough pill to swallow. I think that I am in the grieving process. Grieving behaviors that I exhibited, relationships lost, relationships changed, and life in general being different than I know it.

I have been taking a really long and hard look at myself the past few days. Who am I? Why do I behave the way I do? Why do I push people away, all the freaking time? Why can I not just receive love? Why do I fight and complicate everything? This is a lot to think about and process through.

I can honestly say that the overwhelming emotion that I have been feeling these past days, is fear. Fear because I have no clue what is next on this extraordinary journey. I am realizing that God is much more present in my life than I could even imagine. He listens to my conversations, watches my actions, sees every attitude, and hears every word muttered under my breath. That is a little intimadating. I think that I needed to realize this a long time ago and still I don't grasp it to it's full extent.

Life would be drastically easier if I would just let go of the reigns on my life and let God drive. Due to the fact that I am dead set on controlling my own life, I have forefitted a great relationship with my mentor, the opportunity to be discipled by God's perfect choice, and a fast track healing and launching. You wonder if I feel like a loser? The answer is yes. Very much so.

The hardest thing in life is not knowing what you want. I thought that I wanted freedom and to be accountability free, and when I think I got it or when it is handed to me, I realize that I don't want it at all. Then I realize that it is to late to have the original good plan and I feel like I'm drowning. But I chose to jump off of the boat.

One of the biggest questions that I have asked myself is: Will God have Mercy and Redeem me? I believe that He can make all things work out for my best, I just wonder if it will involve the same paths, people, and ending. I hope it does, because I had it really freaking well and I threw it away.

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Sarcasm Is Not Appreciated!

I recently moved from North Carolina to Florida. The reason behind this decision was God. The Lord woke me up one night and told me I was going to Pensacola. Thinking I was insane, but having learned in my life, the best thing to do is be obedient to God and you really cannot go wrong. So I packed my bags and moved on down. That is simply the setup to this story about my sarcasm not being appreciated. Deciding that I will remain in Florida until directed otherwise, certain things needed to be handled. I needed to get a Florida drivers license, my car registered in Florida as well as get insurance, guess where, in Florida! I found out that this needed to be done when I received an unexpected call from my dad,who in a rather testy and impatient tone informed me that I needed to bring my car a whopping 9 hours up to North Carolina in order to get it inspected. Well, that wasn't really an option at all for me at the time. So, two weeks ago I got the ball rolling finding out which documents were needed in order to transfer registration, how much it would cost me to do this, and searching for the cheapest and most productive car insurance I could find. Boy, I absolutely had not idea where to start! I decided to look where all great thinkers go to find answers. GOOGLE.COM!!! I found a plethora of information that was really very helpful. I searched online to find the phone numbers of insurance companies that cover Florida residents, and called my wonderful banker to find out if I had the adequate funds to cover this surprisingly pricey experience. I did! On Wednesday, I made numerous calls to insurance agents starting with Allstate thinking, based on the commercials, that I would be in good hands. What the commercial doesn't show you is that those good hands are filled with your money! My next call went to State Farm, again, based on the commercials, I thought "Well, like a good neighbor State Farm is there." However, to my unpleasant surprise, that neighbor was stealing money from me! Then it hit me! FLO!!!! I got on the phone with Progressive, and got my quote, it was decent, a little high, however, for the most part manageable with food and rent. I wasn't satisfied though, because I hadn't tested all my options. You know the saying, "Save the best for last.?" It is so true. DA-DA-DADA! Geico! I was on the phone with them for roughly fifteen minutes and they saved me 15% on my car insurance. Well I was sold! 1 point for me, 0 points for crappy insurance!  So on a Thursday I went to my local tax collector's office and started the process. I sat down with a very friendly looking lady named Bonnie, she took one look at me and knew that I was a girl who had no clue what I was doing. God Bless Her, she was a doll to work with! We started by proving that I had Florida insurance, thank you Geico! Once that was done we then moved onto my driver's license. I, not thinking I would have my picture taken, was wearing a very attractive head scarf (the one in the picture at the top of the blog, feel free to comment on how awesome my scarf looks :)_) I had to remove the scarf for my picture. Well not knowing what it looked like, Bonnie said, "Patricia, you have some wind blowned hair!" (Yes, I realize it says blowned, that was the way she actually said it.) I looked at her and said, "Well Bonnie, fix it." I leaned over the desk and she kindly fixed my hair for me to ensure that I didn't look jacked up for my license picture. We took the picture and she let me approve it. We took a second picture and that was so much better, I picked that one. Next was the personal information. I sat back down at her desk and she told me that she just needed the answers to a few questions. This is where the post title comes into play! Question number 1: "Are You: Black, Asian, Caucasian, Native American, or Other?" I'm sitting there across from Bonnie, clearly a white girl, wondering to myself, "Can she not see me?" So, I answer, "Black." The look on sweet Bonnie's face clearly told me, "SARCASM IS NOT APPRECIATED!" She then stopped the questionnaire to remind me that I was under the eligibility to be tried in court under penalty of Perjury. Well, I had never heard that term before so I asked, "What does that mean." She told me that basically, me answering those questions right there, was me being under oath, so penalty of perjury is lying under oath. She then told me that if I provide false answers I could go to prison for up to five years. Quickly, I changed my answer to Caucasian! I finished the paperwork, got my registration and roughly $500 later, walked out of there a legal resident of Florida!

The moral of this story is if you are quick witted, sharp, smart, attractive, funny, humorous, sarcastic, that is wonderful! Leave it outside the door, though, when you go to the DMV, Tax Collector's Offices, or any other Government run facility. Because if you don't you could go to prison for up to 5 years!

I hope you enjoyed this true tale! And Remember...State Farm, Allstate, and Progressive do not provide the most inexpensive car insurance. Acquiring new registration, insurance and a driver's license is mega expensive, But Most Importantly....SARCASM IS NOT APPRECIATED!

Hello! I am on this Extraordinary Adventure.

Hey, How are you doing?

 I am on this extraordinary adventure and I welcome you to take a peek at what my adventure looks like and entails. I cannot promise you pictures or recounts of skydiving or deep sea excursions at this point in my life. However, what I can offer you, is my take on life and what is happening now. I want to share my 20/20 views on the world around me from what God is doing in my life, to the Music that inspires me and promotes the walls in my life to be broken down, even if just for a song. I want you to know what foods in my city and surrounding cities taste deeeeelicious and what experiences, good or bad, are going on. I think everyone has a voice and if you are willing, I would love for you to read mine!

My hope is that you are in some way, inspired, maybe even uplifted by this blog. I hope that there will be posts that you read and say to yourself, "Wow, the same thing happened to me" or "Hey, I think that Too!"

If you choose to continue reading and even following this blog, you can go ahead and call me your travel agent, because, the adventure is only beginning.

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